Do you realize rather than putting your energy into wanting something, put your energy into creating it? Why? Desperately wanting something is not very likely to bring it about.
Your sense of want and your desperation serve mainly to perpetuate an attitude of lack and limitation. Instead, open yourself to the magnificent abundance that is yours.
Beginning today begin to just let go of all your thoughts of lack and limitation. See the difference by thinking as if what you seek is already taking shape and it will be.